Now I know how far you'd go....

"There's nothing I could say to you, nothing I could ever do to make you see what you mean to me. All the pain, the tears I cried, still you never said goodbye, and now I know how far you'd go. I know I let you down, but it's not like that now, this time I'll never let you go. I will be all that you want, and get myself together, cause you keep me from falling apart. All my life, I'll be with you forever, to get you through the day and make everything okay. I thought that I had everything, I didn't know what life could bring, but now I see, honestly. You're the one thing I got right, the only one I let inside. Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me. And if I let you down, I'll turn it all around, cause I would never let you go. I will be all that you want, and get myself together cause you keep me from falling apart. And all my life, I'll be with you forever to get you through the day and make everything okay."
- I Will Be, Leona Lewis.


Friends. I don't have many. Well, no, let me correct that. I don't have many friends that I can trust, or talk to. At school I have plenty of people I can socialise with, I get described as 'popular', I get on with most people, but that doesn't mean I have an easy time of it. I feel extremely alone a lot of the time, due to the fact that I have very few friends I can tell everything to, and can trust. In fact, right now, I probably only have one.


That one friend however, means an infinite amount to me. I am not exaggerating when I say I honestly believe that I wouldn't be here today if it wasn't for him. I will keep him anonymous, he has a right to privacy, so let's call him...Sam. Sam goes to my school, and to begin with when I started there, we didn't get on too well. I honestly can't remember how we became friends, but we gradually grew closer and closer, and now I can tell him anything (and hopefully he can tell me anything too!). I speak to him everyday, and he's supported me so greatly through everything. He doesn't have to however, I've told him many times that in a way I would rather he didn't support me incase the outcome is that I hurt him by some unfortunate turn of events.


Although, I cannot explain in words how thankful I am to have him around, and how much he's helped me. He understands what I'm going through (unlike most people), and he's been there for me just offering an ear to listen or a shoulder to cry on, and sometimes that's the best thing anyone can do. Sam means the world to me, and I wish that everyone had a Sam, maybe then things would be easier for people, if each person had that one friend who really 'gets' them, and will always be there for them, no matter what.


This is just a post to thank Sam (you know who you are!), because I honestly don't think he realises how much he means to me, and how much he's helped me. 


Support is one of the most important stages in recovery, and I'm so glad I can tick it off the list. 


Katherine
xxx